I know that everyone's aware by now that I no longer live in the Inland Empire. I relocated to my moms in The Bay area. I'm not necessarily enrolled in any school , I do independent study. I still continue to see my Lover Boy AKA Justiiiin :) . I stay in a one bedroom apartment with 6 people , including me. 7 People if you include the guy who's fighting in Iraq the majority of the time. My circle now consists of 3 people , not including my boyfriend. I steer real clear and far from my " father " and I haven't spoken to him since he gave me money at Arielle's. I don't plan on speaking to him , or seeing him. But I will forgive him. I still keep in contact with my brothers regardless. Whew , talk about sacrafice. You have no idea ...
On another note , I realized how two faced a couple people were. If only you knew what effect it had on me. But to make a long story short , DO NOT UNDERESTIMATE ME & DO NOT EVER EVER REST ON THE CHOICES I HAVE MADE BEFORE! Be reaaal. I've learned so many things within the last three months of my move and living place to place. It was no joy ride for me , believe that. 2009 Is not a good year for me , but has been better by far in many other situations compared to last year. I think , well actually , I know I've grown into a young lady at heart & with mind. Things I would have never considered trying last year are things I've been doing now. How stubborn was I in the past? That trait hasn't left completely , I've learned it runs in my genetics. The mama's side for the most part. Speaking of ...
I was hesitant about moving in with her , but it's been the best decision I think I have made so far. & We're getting along pretty well considering some things. I'm trying to move out , to be honest. I just can't stand being in authorities hands. She's 4 months pregnant with her 7th child! & It better be a boy. I'm the only boss princess around here , LOL.
My relationship with Justin just gets so much better as each day passes by. Who would have thought that distance could have brought us closer!? He still comes to see me. Well he did , but right now it's not as easy cos my uncle is hellla trippin about him staying the night again. He said he couldn't stay anymore. So it's difficult. Last time , we tried having him sleep in my moms car @ night hahaha. It worked tho. I'm making my effort to see him but , that as well does not come eaasy! Sheeesh. Anywho , we're planning on moving in together when I turn 18 so by that time we'll have bunches of oats of money saved up. Nice plan right? Kinda. We got other things to pay for , like insurances and mess LOL. It doesn't hurt to dream. I love him! Really.
& Last but never least , always coming first in my heart ; My relationship with Christ! It gets built. My very main reason for my moral change and traits. Because I'm willing. I need to be saved. Hell would not be an option for a final destination. Reading the bible , learning verses [ Thanks Babe!] , knowing the right & wrong thing. I don't want to be a sinner anymore. I'm doing what I can , really.
Other than thaaat , I'll get on this when I feel like it. Time's kind of consumed. Whatever that means.
