For the thrill of the fall.
sooo, i'm at janells house and she's stoned, so is her brother. i'm watching her & her brother scrapbooking for his gal since it's valentines day. i spent my valentines day watching gabriel cage three boys on oncores. i went with janeelllll. we watched barber shop 2. after the session, we picked up kyle for kristine's debut. darryl didn't have a purple shirt, so we went to walmart to look for one. it wasn't successful. back to janell's to get ready. darryl & kyle took forever to come pick us up, so we were just like efff alll that jigggabooo. not reallly. i'm supposed to be at arielle's but i'm not. gabriel let me have his bible. i'll be needing it. i made a new friend today, and his name is jay. i didn't even know him & with the kindness of his heart, he let me eat these baked cookies at his house. but with the discomfort of my body, he picked me up & coulda crushed me. i also have a new baby daddy, he's nine years old lmaaaoooo ;) & we all think he should battle one day at an event. his name's chris, keiths little brother. oh, p.s; darryl is stilll driving like his name is devan cunningham. i liked tonight because, we listened to loud rock music in the car & some pretty vulgar music but that's okay. i've been having bad pains on my right side. like, right along my ribs & now to my pelvic bone. advil, ibuprofen, & excederin didn't help me out. i don't think i have a urinary tract infection anymore cos it doesn't hurt. but i still might have to get checked out again for my side pains because on thursday i almost fainted in rotc physical training. that also happened on behalf of me not drinking or eatin that day, lack of inhaler use, UTI, rib pains, & then my whole body cramped up. cecilia, bianca donk, and maria helped me out in the locker room. josh helped me walk there. it makes me feel good that people do care at some point. i was in the nurses for a little bit & i got to ride in a wheel chair. apparently, i have a lack of potassium & i need more electrolytes.
but besides that;
yesterday - which was friday. i got kicked out my house. it was gonna come eventually. i packed almost all my stuff. rico picked me up, dropped me offf here. tomorrow i'm gonna stay with arielle til wednesday. wednesday, i'm gettin picked up & staying with someone else til my mom buys me a ticket to live with her. i don't know how i'm going to survive financially but, i think i can make it. other people need that money more than i do. i can starve for a week, it's fine with me. i'm gonna misss alot of people for good reasons like, big impacts on my life. i'm doing alot for my age. but then again, i always have. since like, three years of age. i can do this :) just have to look into the bible more for moral support. thanks mom for helping me out<3>
about justin; this is the longest i haven't seen him. it's been like a week exactly i think since i've seen him. but, i have no problema with that. i'll see him soon:) all week we were fighting like, daily. til thursday night. we're good now. i saw some superman boxers today that said " man of steel " on the waistband. i thought it was funny, i wanted to buy them for him. it's obvious i miss him. thank lord i have him. he's helped me re shape & form myself for the better. well, janell wants me to take some things off of this. but i'm not going to, because when she's sober - i want her to just laugh at this. and she's made some of the stupidest remarks tonight while she was under the influence. but i can't think of them. i think i got a contact high.
i gotta keep updating this thing. it's like, my new diary or something. well, more like a memory file? idk. can't really reveal anything on here. pray that i'm alive within the next two weeks. and if you care, keep in touch to make sure i stay alive. -2
