Monday, January 12, 2009

Misery.

it has been approximately four days now without justin. it has been three rough days i haven't spoken to my father. it will be five more months til i move out. the devil doesn't have to be here , and i still feel like my demon's wont leave. i hope the distance between me & mama will dissolve so i can move in with her. cos i am not not not living here any longer after school ends. but anywho , a couple petty things i been stresssin on besides that are ...

  • comforter set for my bed
  • some curtains or drapes
  • rooom incense
  • return chemistry book
  • nail polish remover so i can re - do my damn toes! agh. this mix match with the finger tips and toes is not workin out foreal.
  • my short hair is not tryna grow back
  • haven't even been to deygo
  • need a damn j o b !
  • & yeah yeah whatever , i hella miss my boyfriend :) haha

besides it all. i am soooo sore! yesterday , not only did i re - arrange my damn room by myself ; but i had to carry my new bedset upstairs by myself. take all the furniture out my room by myself. put the new bed up by myself . drill the damn thing together by myself ( considering i've never touched a power drill before a day in my damn life ). & then move more furniture! but in result , my room looks lovely:) i don't mind now that i think of it because it just made me feel better for that bxtch made niggah to look at me and be like " she did that without anyone's help ?" well guess what " father figure " , i don't always needs someones help. so fuck you.

it would be nice if i threw away my potty mouth tho. i need to get back on my walk with jesus. demon's are just gnawing and tearing through my skin as each breathing day of mines passes! ugh. this is better than myspace:)